Who are you?
“Loving oneself isn't hard, when you
understand who and what 'yourself' is. It has nothing to do with the shape of
your face, the size of your eyes, the length of your hair or the quality of
your clothes. It's so beyond all of those things and it's what gives life to
everything about you. Your own self is such a treasure”
(Phylicia Rashad).
The word self is used in several different
contexts. We often refer to ourselves as
myself or in some way that individualizes us. What’s
interesting to me about self is that we say, “myself” or some version of this
but rarely think about what we mean by this.
We don’t ask ourselves if there is a deeper meaning to the word self and
how it impacts us on a daily basis.
One of the things I remember the most
from my moments as an intern during my counseling degree was working with clients
on the concept of self. It is not an
easy concept to grasp. I would ask them
the question many of us remember from Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland. The caterpillar asks her repeatedly, “Who are
you?” while he is smoking what to me
looks like a hookah, he even blows smoke letters to show her his question. I am not sure how many of you remember the
movie, but Alice never really answers him.
He even gets frustrated with her, and eventually gets down right angry
enough with her to turn into a cloud of smoke.
When the smoke clears, the caterpillar has disappeared, and we see him
yelling at Alice a few minutes later, and he has become something different. He has turned into a butterfly. The self he was has transformed into something
more magical and lovely, but his self remained.
He was still ornery, sarcastic, and a little disgusted with Alice.
When asking my clients, the profound
question of “who are you,” I received several answers that, like Alice’s, did
not answer my question. It’s not a
question we can really answer for someone else.
It’s only a question we can answer for ourselves. The self is something that is a part of
us. It goes down deep and is a part of
our very soul. Only we can know
ourselves better than anyone else, but majority of the world is walking around
knowing others better than they know themselves. I can remember those interesting “who are you”
group sessions. I received answers like,
“I’m an addict,” “I’m a drifter,”: I’m a construction worker,” “I’m a cosmetologist,”
and the list goes on and on. Can you guess
what is missing? Can you see why it is
that the caterpillar was disgusted with Alice?
Can you see why so many of us are walking around with identity crises?
As you can see by this week’s quote,
the self has little to do with physical or surface aspect of who you are. When you look up the word self in the
dictionary it actually lists the different parts of the self, but it mentions
the body only once. Even those who wrote
the dictionary are aware that the self has more to do with internal factors
instead of external features or vanity.
Self:
1.
The union of
elements left such as body, emotions, thoughts, and sensations that constitute the
individuality and identity of a person.
2.
Personal interest
or advantage for a, entire person of an individual.
3.
The realization or
embodiment of an abstraction.
In truth,
the concept of self is abstract. There is
no concrete tangible substance to self. It
is just there, like the soul or our spirits.
Now, you may think I’m getting a little metaphysical in my idea of self,
but if you think about it, you’ll see that it is difficult to truly explain
self to someone.
Abstract:
1.
Only having intrinsic
form with little or no attempt at pictorial representation or narrative content
2.
Disassociated from
any specific instance; difficult to understand; insufficiently factual.
3.
Expressing a
quality apart from an object: dealing with a subject in its theoretical form:
impersonal, detached
I believe
self is the single most important part of our lives. Many people have told me that I spend too
much time alone because I value self over just about everything. It is not selfish to love ourselves. It is not wrong to indulge ourselves when we
can. It is not wrong to take the time to
know ourselves and accept who we are without compunction even when others are
hell bent on changing us, finding fault in us, or trying to find a way to make
us become someone completely different from who we are. One of the most important parts to remember is
that we only have one self, and we are the one’s who can mold that person.
Oh
sure, throughout life, we have been molded in some ways by our parents,
society, our environments, and even our genetics. But who we are, the very core
of our individuality is ours to sculpt and create. A lot of people are under the impression that
they cannot change. One of my favorite clichés
and old adages to hear is “I’m stuck in my ways.” This statement can be taken one of two
ways. I can think this person is
stubborn and closed minded and unwilling to grow, or I can think that this
person has truly grown to know himself and refuses to be molded by anyone else’s
idea of who he should be.
As you
can tell, the word should is emphasized.
There is no should. Throughout
our lives we hear the word should over and over again when we receive advice
from someone. Once you understand and
know who you are, there is no should. Your
values, morals, beliefs, and behaviors are yours to have. You get to judge if you are right or
wrong. You get to understand if you want
to change a behavior or not. That choice
is up to you. We receive the ability to
choose from our higher powers, and humans are often harder on us than our deities,
and that should tell you something.
We have what the forefathers of the United States called our inalienable
rights. I feel that we have an inalienable
right to learn who we are; decide who we want to become; and shape ourselves
into the person we wish to be.
And
so, we come to the crux of the matter. The
shaping and sculpting of ourselves is just as important as the concept of self. Who you are today is all right. If you’re happy with who you are? I say only change the part of you you’re uncomfortable
with. As this series of posts go on, we
will learn about self more in depth. The
first thing in this quest toward self-awareness is to understand that there are
several parts to the self: self-awareness, self-confidence, self-concept, self-control,
self-esteem, self-image, and self-worth.
These are the parts of self that we hear about the most in psychology
and probably in the media as well. We’ll
hear a story about a girl with a low self image who became an anorexic or a
young man with a low self-worth who engages in self-injury. The problems that most of us have with
ourselves have very little to do with us.
Usually it has more to do with others: what they say to us; what they do
to us; how we are seen by others; how our lives are impacted by events; how we
think of ourselves because someone has planted that view in our minds. The reason knowing and understanding ourselves
is extremely important is because we will never escape the shoulds and musts
in our lives if we don’t first learn who we are. Where there is no understanding, there is no acceptance,
wrote Thich Nhat Hanh in his book Pease is Every Step. If we can understand ourselves, we can accept
ourselves, flaws and all. If we can accept
ourselves, what other people say about us or do to us won’t matter as much. Another interesting side effect of self-acceptance
is that when we accept ourselves, others find a way to accept us as well. They stop spouting unsolicited advice at us
and begin to try to find understanding and acceptance of us as well.
Next
week, we start to learn more about self, how it impacts our lives, and how we
can learn to understand who we are. Thank
you for being a part of the Soul Search Café. I look forward to continuing a learning
relationship with you. Share your
comments and perspectives with us, so we can learn from you.
Until next we meet, stay
encouraged and affirmed,
Nell
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